OK, I’m better now. I have what can be described as a “Love-Hate” relationship with food, it’s pretty simple…if it’s bad for me, I love it and if it’s good for me, more times than not I hate it. I mean come on, celery stick or cheese stick? If you say celery stick (and really mean it), well, I’m not sure we can continue to be friends! Choosing it because it’s a healthier option is different than choosing it because you think it tastes better!
We live in a fast-food world! Let’s face facts, it’s easy to run through the “Golden Arches” or go “ring the Bell”, it’s called Fast Food for a reason! My Fast-Food lifestyle kicked into full gear when I started traveling for a living. In general you don’t have the time or the means to cook while on the road and researching healthy dining options was not all that easy back when I started doing this. We didn’t have “Smart Phones” and the Internet was nothing like it is today. And by the time these things came along eating poorly was just a habit. No, I’m not blaming anyone or anything for the absolute train wreck my eating habits have become; it is and always will be 100% on me!
The argument could be made that I should have at least eaten healthy when I’m at home, and believe it or not I tried on different occasions. But this created other issues…follow me here. Healthy food is expensive food; I think everyone will agree with that. Healthy food also tends to spoil quickly, lack of preservatives, chemicals and such. So basically you spend a lot of money of food that goes bad pretty quickly. In my traveling world that equals a lot of wasted food and money. Then there is the cooking thing, I can cook when I want to. It’s the “want to” part that usually gets me. I am not one of these people who can walk into a pantry and create a gourmet meal out of whatever might be in there, but I can follow a recipe. In fact I’m well known for my homemade perogies at the holidays!
After trying to avoid the nutrition nightmare that is my life I was finally forced to admit that I not only have to make some changes, but I have no idea how to go about it. Yes, I made a sad attempt at MK’s vegan eating style a while back and while some of the stuff was actually really good, the simple idea of never eating pizza again made me want to punch people! So I need a way to eat better, but still have the things I really enjoy from time to time. I’m still going to hang out with my friends who eat pizza. I’m still going to make ice cream runs with my siblings in the summer (and the fall, winter and spring); I’m still making 400+ perogies at New Year’s (no, they are not all for me, but thank you for asking!) But these things need to become the exception rather than the norm.
Enter KB. We made an attempt at this when I first signed one with her, but to be honest, it wasn’t a priority for me and so naturally it didn’t work overly well. And there are those amongst my friends who have absolutely no faith I’ll do any better this time. And to be honest, maybe they’re right, but what if they’re wrong?
The first step I suppose was telling KB that I wanted to discuss this, so last Friday and the ass-crack of dawn (6:00am) we had a little “Come-to-Jesus” meeting…LOL! That tends to sound like it was something bad, but nothing could be farther from the truth. In the end I think she’s setup something I can work with and live with long term. I have to make some changes, I have to learn to be accountable (KB’s gonna help me out there, LOL!) and yes, I need to stop “ringing the bell” but there is still enough flexibility in the program that I can have a slice of pizza at “girls-night” if I want it.
I think the biggest challenge is the mental one. Not going to food when I’m bored, tired, upset, happy, whatever! Having said that, KB actually wants me to eat more and more often! We’re pretty well conditioned to think that in order to drop weight we have to eat less. It would appear we need to eat more of the right things at the right times! For example I generally do not eat before I work out in the morning. I get up, go to the gym, workout, go to work and eat breakfast roughly 3-4 hours after I get up. Not anymore! By the time I get breakfast at the office I will have eaten twice already!
I think this will be a lot like my workouts; I have to put in the work! Will I have bad days? OH YEA!!! But I’ll see results as long as I keep working at it. I’ll occasionally lose my motivation, just like I do in the gym, but I have people around me that will help get me back on track. ONWARD!!!