Perhaps it was the doughnuts my customer had brought in. Have I mentioned how much I love doughnuts? The issue is more specifically the fact that I could not have one. Let me classify that, I “can” have anything I want, but I knew I shouldn’t inhale those fantastically soft, sweet little rings of heaven. And so I didn’t! What’s the point of all this work if I’m going to give in to a pastry?
Maybe it was the fact that my heart was breaking for a dear friend who was dealing with the devastating loss of one of her four legged babies. Some will understand the tragedy, others will not. For those that do, say a prayer for my friend and for those who do not, I feel sorry for you for never knowing the kind of unconditional love that can only come from a pet.
Maybe my less than stellar mood was still the result of going without candy, soda (pop) or caffeine. I was a little nervous about being on the road and trying to eat well, but I actually did surprisingly well. I ate some really balanced means, lots of steamed veggies, lean protein, a few carbs and more veggies. And of course as mentioned above my ability to say no to sugar coated goodness that is a doughnut. I was actually pretty proud of myself.
Maybe it was the bridge! My family and some of my friends will understand that statement and maybe I'll explain it to the rest of you at a later date.
Regardless of the cause, I was in an absolutely horrible mood. I thought maybe I’d feel better once I worked out, and by all rights I should have, I had a really good workout. I had a “penalty clause” in today’s workout; I had a pushup for each time I had to stop during the workout. Me being me and loving a challenge, I just didn’t stop. But my pushups are unbelievably sad, so I did 10 at the end of my workout just for the practice.
I was home in time to go to karate last night, and with my test only 12 weeks away I figured I should go. Actually I debated not going for no other reason than my crappy mood. In the end I went to class. I may not have had a reason to be in a bad mood when I got there, but I had several by the time I left. I looked horrible! I know I haven't been active for several months, but good grief! I’ve been trying to keep a relatively positive attitude, but tonight I’m simply having a bad night. It happens, to everybody. I’m overwhelmed by where I am and where I need to be.
CK has a question for me when I get absolutely lost in my own life, “how do you eat an elephant?” The answer is simple, "one bite at a time", but the smartass in me always says something like “I’ve never eaten an elephant” or “what happens if I get trampled by the elephant” or “I’m not sure elephant is on my diet” LOL! See even in a bad mood I make myself laugh!!!! At any rate I guess the point is, it is ok to have bad moments, bad days, etc. Just don't waste too much time!
Tomorrow will be better!