While I have no doubt that there are rock stars out there that can knock these out in like 20 seconds, I am not one of those individuals! I can hardly do 10 sit-ups that fast (Yes, I know that’s sad and pathetic, but it’s the truth.) Before anyone starts giving me a hard time about my attitude I’d like it noted that I did make a legit attempt…and failed miserably. Failure is something I don’t do overly well with. In my frustration I may or may not have sent a message to my trainer asking if she was out of her mind.
After questioning my trainer’s sanity I plopped my fat ass on the couch and pouted. Yes, I pouted and had all of the, lovely, self-doubts race through my mind. How in the world will I ever do a sprint triathlon or a half marathon if I can’t even do this for 30 minutes? What was I thinking? What made me ever think I could do this? You know what I’m saying. But after a brief pity party I decided that the only way for me to fail, beyond a doubt, is to give up. You cannot succeed if you do not try. So I got off the couch and made an adjustment. The sit-ups are my undoing, so instead of doing full sit-ups, I did crunches. A modification is better than not doing anything. (At least that’s what I’m going with.)
I was grinding through the workout, I would finish each set in about 35-40 seconds, which would give me 20-25 seconds to contemplate puking all over my living room carpet, I mean rest. Normally at the end of a challenging workout I feel pretty good, but not today. While I did the workout I was still unhappy that I had to modify it. I’m ok with putting a little pressure on myself, I just have to be careful that I don’t squash my own self-confidence and give myself a really lame excuse to quit. But I think just recognizing that is huge. For those of us that grew up watching GI Joe cartoons, we all know the mantra of “knowing is half the battle” (for those who did not grow up with GI Joe…I’m so sorry!) Knowing and acknowledging where your self-made landmines are is important. If you can identify your self destructive tendencies, you can work on fixing them or at least try to avoid them.